When I started this blog, my main idea was to make it something that I can express my feeling on multiple subjects that are very debatable.
But lately, I feel like the blog is just used to vent out my sad thoughts in hope of my readers to feel sorry for me. I really lost the purpose of this site.
I'm just a sad kid. I have nothing special about me.
I thought there was something - something different about me than all the other people at my school. All the people who are mean, the people whom I hate. But truly, I am the exact same thing as them.
I lie to my friends.
I cancel last minute to be with someone I proclaim "more fun."
I harass people about my feelings.
I have low self esteem.
I bring out the worst in some people.
I am a target.
I don't really have anything going for me.
I speak like I know everything; I don't.
I am doing everything they want me to do:
I am making myself feel terrible.
& I don't know what my purpose really is right now.