Tuesday, March 17, 2009

I don't like it when we do group projects & my partners throw the work onto me.

I haven't really had too much to say recently, so I decided to share one of my past experiences.
Two years ago, when I was in 5th grade, our elementary school had a science fair. I decided to work with two of my friends, Joan & Kayla. They were really close to me and were also very smart. When we chose our partners, I knew that I was up for a fun time and that my partners wouldn't make the amount of work divided unequally.
Until we actually started on the project.

I carried about 50% of the weight, while they both carried half the weight I had. I provided most of the supplies and did most of the research. Joan, who provided a minor part of the experiment, believed that was all she needed to do. Kayla, on the other hand, provided nothing, and just sat down acting like there was nothing to do.

Kayla got mad at me too (who is in blue):
"Kayla, you have not been doing so much work. I have been doing a lot more than you and Joan did."
"Well, you're not letting me do anything!"

Why would I not let someone do the work? I would be MORE THAN HAPPY.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

When you're feeling weak, you want to rant everything out.

In the past year, I have had a lot of problems with my friends. Some things have been easy to let go of - some, I think otherwise.
I had a really good friend in sixth grade, let's call him Kevin. We told each oter everything, and I hung out with him more than I hung out with my two best friends. If they saw this, they would instantly know who. This is why I am not telling them.
The reason I hung out with him more is because I felt safer saying stuff to him rather than my two friends who either criticize everything I say, or they don't really care. This year, we only have one class together. So we grew apart. A lot of things happened to him this ear regarding school & his grades. And he didn't tell me any of it. I kinda felt betrayed. So one day, he got on AIM. He goes on maybe once every 4 months. I don't think he has a big buddy list, so there's not a lot of people to talk to. You know what I did?
I jumped right in to talk to him.

I would have copied the conversation onto here, but I'm using a different computer. The day I talked to him was the day I got my computer virus. Right after I logged off, my computer shut off and won't open unless we pay for some fancy computer repair costing about 300 dollars.

We talked about how I am never told anything. I swear, I sounded like pissed off girlfriend. But eventually, I got somewhere. I was having such a bad day, that I used him to vent about everything happening; the problems with my friends, grades, and what happened to him.
...then, I realized I said a sentence too much. I said a thing I don't want to say. I made a very, very horrible comment about one of my friends. I lost my control. I was happy enough to hear that he won't tell. That's what a friend is.
You may have friends who are way distant, but you can still mantain a good friendship.

I really miss last year. The school year has been doing no good for me. There are only fourteen more weeks left until summer. And I am gonna spend that summer well.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

The grass is always greener on the other side.

Remember the girl whom I envy?
I guess that not everyone has their perks..

I was walking behind her and her boyfriend. Just a normal passing period. Her hair was up, and she needed to scratch the back of her neck. That's when I quietly gasped. As she pushed her hair back to scratch, I saw something revolting.


Backne is acne on your back/back of your neck. Boy, she had it. She had it badly. I was in shock. She looks flawless..when she has a t shirt/hooded jacket on & her hair is down. When that's not the case, I feel a little better about myself. Would I still want to be in her position? Probably. There's always a dermatologist for those kinds of problems. I had one and my skin is clear.

Monday, March 2, 2009

I need to tell someone something I don't want to say.

I have new best friends.

Yeah. I don't want to tell my longtime best friend that I want to change her from first speed dial, to maybe 4th.
I think I have to.
I have a friend, Sally, who I tell almost everything.
She knows maybe, double or triple the amount my best friend knows.

No, really.

My friends don't even like my best friend. They think she's emo.

She is really spoiled. She played a Wii game I borrowed and was like "I'm gonna buy that."
She has 13 games. She has had her Wii for a year. I have had mine for 6 months and have two.
In my head, I'm like she just gets a game like that!?

I think I deserve better.